Feeling run down

I feel so run down today. I suppose the weather doesn't help but i just wish i could pick up my mood.

I have had a busy week. Abi has been ill so i've been looking after her. Ray's back is quite bad so he's not done much at all and the boys have kinda just been left to it.
I woke up this morning feeling like i haven't slept for a week and that i have 101 things to get done.

Spent yesterday afternoon laying lino in our bathroom after i had to rip the carpet up when Abi decorated it with vomit!
Never again will i volunteer to do that job again as it took me ages.

I can't wait to get away on holiday, am going to book myself in for a nice pedicure when we get there. Will be nice to be pampered instead of pampering others.

I've not done so well today with my eating. Was going to have pea and ham soup for lunch as i hadn't had brekfast and then i couldn't eat it so ended up having two bread buns! Not good.
We have all just eaten an icecream cone each, was low fat but still, i shouldn't of had it really.

Am in one of those moods where i could pick! Bad times!
Really trying not to but i'm feeling drawn to the kitchen. Keep telling myself it's not worth it and i've had a treat. Not hungry at all so it's just greed and boredom.
I think if i try and find myself a low points meal for supper and stick to it i'll feel better. Grrrr, hate days like this.

Send me happy thoughts please.

Weigh~in!

Stayed the same this week which i was happy with as i really didn't think i would of lost last week and i did so am happy to of stayed the same.
So glad it wasn't a gain so here's to a good week ahead.

2.5lb to get to my first stone.

So tired

I'm so tired today. Abi is ill so she spent the night with me last night and i was up early this morning with her. Hope she's feeling better by tomorrow the poor little thing.

Just been to pilates and really enjoyed it again. We had a laugh cos some of us you didn't have the strength to do some of the exersises!
Last class next week then there is a 4 week break so i'll have to make sure that i keep it up at home or use my weighwatchers dvd.
Don't think we'll get swimming as a family this week so i might try and get ther on my own one evening and we can go next Tuesday before my weight in.

Hope i have a loss tonight. Our leader is away and not sure if i have met the lady who is taking the class or not but i'm looking forward to the meeting as it's nice to have a change. Hope she brings some fresh ideas with her.

Well i'm off for a relaxing bath so i'll post later.

Friendship + Weightloss = Headache

Don't really know how to put this but i'm finding that i'm needing to watch who i spend time with whilst i'm loosing weight.
I'm the kind of person who likes to feel relaxed with friends and just have a laugh or good old chat and there is nothing better when you are having a hard time.

If my friends come to my house, no matter what i am doing i put kettle on and we sit down and chat away but my friends don't do this and this makes me feel unwelcome.
I never just turn up at there houses, i always make arrangemts first so what is their problem. I guess this is only one person i'm talking about and it's pissed me off.
Now i just want to eat chocolate!!!!!!

I'm trying to get out and about more since i passed my driving test and am making such an effort to visit people. Well i guess i'll have to avoid people who put me on a downer.

Dear Lord

Dear Lord,
So far today, I'm doing all right.
I have not gossiped, lost my temper,
been greedy, grumpy, nasty,
selfish or self-indulgent.
I have not whined, complained,
cursed or eaten any chocolate.
I have charged nothing on my charge card.

But I will be getting out of bed in a minute,
and i think I will really need your help then.

Weigh~in!

Well another pound bites the dust. Feels so good to stand on them scales and see a loss.
Hoping that i'm going to keep this up cos i now don't ever want to get on the scales and see that i've gained.

The twins break up from school tomorrow and i'm going to have to work hard to not get stressed and eat. Going to focus on being as active as possible with them and have fun, fun, fun.
Will be easier now that we are swimming so will always have something to do.

Went to my Pilates class today and my god it was hard work. All the older ladies were cracking away and it was me who needed to rest and stretch out!!!
I'll get there i guess and i'm enjoying it so that's the main thing. I also got my membership for the sports club which means i get my classes and swimming at a reduced rate which is a bonus.

Feel on a high tonight but i'm so worn out i bet i sleep like a baby.

Cravings

Just been shopping for some essentials and as i was walking round Asda i was wondering what i can have for tea tomorrow night after weigh in. I always have a treat on a Tuesday night.

Anyway i bought some veg and though maybe mince and dumplings but to be honest i don't want it. Very strange for me cos normally i would kill for a nice big plate of mince and dumps.
I really think my food tastes and what i class as a treat are changing. Last week Ray wanted a chinese but all i wanted was a plate of pasta with cheese and bacon and even then i didn't go over the top.

I don't feel i have lost this week. I have been good but i haven't counted my points a couple of days which is silly really so it's my own stupid fault if i don't loose.
Am at pilates tomorrow so i might get a little boost before weigh in, it probably doesn't make that much of a difference like but you never know.