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Slimming World...

is where I'm going tonight. Just spoke to Gillian the leader and she sounds really nice, I'm actually looking forward to getting back at it, I feel a little ill and I know it's all the rubbish I've been eating.

So I got weighed this morning and I've gained 6lb! This has been over about a month but it's still bad.

I'll measure myself when I go in the shower later and get Ray to take my photos, will post them tomorrow! Owch.

Enough Is Enough!

I am about to explode!

I've not been round in ages, have been struggling with depression and up until two weeks ago was not loosing weight but maintaining it at last.

I had stopped all exercise apart from the odd Pilates class, so I was fighting to not gain. I was feeling like I was just about ready to get back into the swing of things again UNTIL Christmas hit. Well of course that was my free ride to stuff my fat face with anything and everything going wasn't it. Bad mistake!

So here I am, back to my trusty blog, hoping for support so that I can shift this fat. I know I'm still not 100% but if I can manage to blog and weigh myself once a week then that'll be a start.
Please scream at me if I don't as I think that's what I need.

I've not been weighed in ages so tomorrow I will do it. Not looking forward to it as I know I'm going to be right back where I started. I will also measure myself and take photos too!!! OWCH.

Right I'm off to catch up with you all and be inspired by how well you all have done. Merry Christmas. xox

What's this all about then?

Silly silly me!

I'm not keeping my eye on things and am starting to get new bad habits when it comes to eating. You could say that I've fallen off the wagon and the thing has lapped me!

I've been on for a wobble this morning and then decided that it's time to get back on the scales, 15st 12lb! So I've gained again and I vowed that I will NOT go back up to 16st so this is it, do or die! lol.

I'm going to give up all junk food, allowing myself one treat a week as I am shocked at how I am diving for junk, sweets, chocolate....
Ok so I am having personal problems, I am stressed and anxious but I need to stop gaining weight now and get back into my exercise routine too.

Oh I'm so upset with myself for allowing this to happen :O(

Quick Catch Up

Just a quick update on where I am right now.

Still feeling pants, still got my ear infection and generally unwell. Went to bed at 6.30pm the other night, bed before the twins! and slept all night, totally run down.

Anyway I think I'm maintaing my weight in stead of gaining which is good but I must get into weighing myself once a week.

Running shoes are out and I will be jogging in the morning come rain or shine. First time since my Race For Life on 15th July! Time to wobble some fat off again me thinks.

I'm just not in the mood

What a a week I'm having!

Not well, have a ear infection and it's so painful and just to top it off I'm not sleeping well at all so I'm so tired.
Basically I'm feeling very sorry for myself and have just eaten half a packet of jelly babies! woops. Ahhh I really didn't want to di it but I had then and I did so I need to get over it and get back on track straight away.

I've not been weighed in a while cos I didn't go with Ray to see the nurse on Friday, which I was going to do and get weighed there. Anyway I will get weighed on Friday. Going to have to use the wii fit for my weigh in cos my scales are pants.

I feel like I'm really not getting back into the swing of things and don't know what to do. I've not started to exercise again either and I have a lack of motivation. I am really trying to just let things go though and gain weight, which I haven't so I guess that's one good thing, I know I can maintain if I want to.

Send me motivation by the bucket loads please!

This morning...

I got weighed whilst I was in with Ray to see the nurse. Now I know my scales are pants but they are all I have, so I weighed myself and I was 15st 4lb.
Anyway I'm not going to get weighed until we go back to the nurse next Friday now.

Ray has just found out the he's diabetic so we are both going to knuckle down now and make sure that we eat healthily. It will be so much easier working as a team. Ray has already lost 4lb in one week by just cutting out all the sweet stuff, I don't eat all the sweet stuff anyway so I can't cut it out to make a difference.

Anyway housework to be done :O)

Schools Back!

Woo hoo!

I lost half a pound this week which I am over the moon with it. I've not been very strong or motivated this week but I have still tried to keep control.

Right, this week I'll be getting back into a routine. This may be made easier by the fact that Ray now has to loose weight.
It's always been tough when it's just been me watching what I eat and Ray just eating what he wants, buying whatever food he likes.

I'm back at pilates today too, haven't been in months and am quite looking forward to it. I may even pop in the gym after class and hopefully I can slowly get back into the swing of things and get the weight loss going.

Lets see what the week brings!

Wisdom for the weekend: 3

Rant

I fancy a rant so here we go!

I'm so wound up at the moment with the kids, grrrr. Can't wait for Monday to come so they can go back to school and I can get my head on straight.

The twins fight at times but not too serious, but Jack hates Abi. He says he doesn't love her and that really upsets me. Me and my brother were never close but I loved him, he also hated me so I know how it feels to grow up with a brother who doesn't love you.
I obviously don't know what to do about this and it's driving me round the bend!

Just been shopping for the boys shoes so that I could get out the house for a while and get away from everybody.

I hate it when I have things like this on my mind because I can't seem to be able to concentrate on anything else and I struggle with my diet. I am going to have to try extremely hard to just put this to the back of my mind until I work out a way of dealing with it and just stay as relaxed as possible. I really am quite highly strung these days and need to chill out a hell of a lot.

I've gone from doing reasonably well on ww, jogging 3/4 times a week, pilates once a week, self defence twice a week and the gym on occasions to doing nothing. Just being stuck at home with the kids, not having any energy and wanting to stuff my face with rubbish.

I know what I need to do but I'm finding it hard to do it. What I need is a huge kick up the backside!

I am going to phone up and book into pilates class for Tuesday, that is one step in the right direction. I will also make sure that when Tuesday comes round I will visit the gym too. As far as everything else is concerned I will take it one step at a time getting back on track.

I lost a grand total of.........

1lb this week. Not quite what I was expecting but at least it's a loss.

Feeling really stressed out still and it's totm so I'm craving bad stuff, not giving in though! Hopefully I will have a bigger loss next week, my period doesn't usually make a difference to my loss but since I had the coil fitted I have been very swollen and sore at times. We'll see.

Kids are back at school on Monday, woo hoooo! They are really starting to get bored now and it's getting harder to keep them entertained. Think we're off to the cinema this week and maybe even swimming.

Here's to a good week :O)

Ahhhhh!

How do you say no? I will be good, I will be good!

What am I doing!!!

Grrrrr! Had a rubbish day, massive argument with Ray, only ate my cereal, am starving, haven't been food shopping, can't be bothered to go food shopping and don't want to cos I'm so hungry. HUH!

Beans on toast for tea and a side plate of a good talking to I think!

PMA

Positive mental attitude! I have woken up feel quite positive today, still don't feel 100% like but at least I am more focused.

So today I am going to work out my points and stick to them, I've not eaten anything yet as I had a very long lay in and am not feeling hungry, but I will have a bowl of cereal as soon as I've done this post.

Plans for today are, to make our bedroom curtains up after having the flock voile for about 6 months and to make the curtain to hang on the twins bunk bed. May as well get back into the swing of things as I'm planning on doing some Christmas stalls at fairs to earn some extra money for Christmas. Only 17 weeks on Friday and I feel I need to be sorting my money out.

Right here's to a good day for us all!

Honey I'm home!

Well I'm finally home for good now, loaded with cold, god knows how many pounds heavier and with a shortage of motivation!
I will get weighed tomorrow so we'll find out what the damage is but my clothes have been feeling tight so it's not going to be good.

I'm doing this on my own now so I hope that I can just get on with it and slowly get back into a good routine with my eating again. I'm hoping that Ray is going to help along the way but we'll see.

As far as exercise is concerned, I've not done anything since my Race For Life in July so I will find it tough getting back into it. The kids go back to school on 7 September so I will use that week to start exercising again and to be honest my body is screaming for it. I feel like a Hippo!

Wish me luck and please keep dropping in on me to help my motivation :O)



Me on Concord G-BOAA

Holiday!

No 2 starts today. We're off to Berwick for a week but i am going to try and be good food wise.

Will be back at it 100% as soon as I get back and am looking forward to it too! See ya. xox

Oink Oink

So Ray most probably has swine flu, I may be coming down with it as I feel pants but I just hope the kids don't get it.

Am struggling to control my eating as it's the dreaded TOTM and I'm craving chocolate BIG time.
I never gain extra pounds when I'm on but I do have terrible periods so after a a good chat with my Dr she thinks it would be a good option for me to have to coil fitted.
I'm not to happy about having to get it fitted but if it stops my pain and horrid hormonal change then I'll give it a go.

So lets see what happens with the swine flu, the coil and my weight loss. Fingers crossed!

Home Sweet Home

Well I'm home from a fantastic two weeks in Barcelona, really wish I was still there but as they say 'All good things must come to an end' :O)



Right, so down to the nitty gritty! I gained 3lb which really isn't too bad. So am going to have Tuesday as my weigh in day and get back on that wagon.



I go away again on 15th August so hopefully I will loose the 3lb by the time I go away again and then when I get home it's the long rocky road until christmas.
I am not going back to class now so will be doing this with my own willpower, really hope I can keep at this but if I feel I'm slipping I will be straight back to class.

Wish me luck!

The time is near...

Holiday time that is.
Right so I feel that I need a plan as it's holiday time and I don't want to totally goo off the rails.

We fly to Barcelona on Wednesday and because it's our first family holiday abroad and we are staying with friends I'm going to relax and bloody enjoy it. Not going to stress over food or anything.

When we get home I will be back at it, healthy eating and exercise full pelt as we are only home for two weeks and two days before we go away again, only to Berwick with the kids but again I won't be following any healthy eating plan, bad me!

Once back I will be again back on it and I will have no excuse until christmas day then, a full 17 weeks and 5 days of being healthy and active!

I'm glad that I'm managing to control my weight more these days, not just piling it all back on just because I'm not loosing. Have noticed how much harder it is when I'm not out jogging though so will be giving that a boost once again. I may even go out in the morning.

Race For Life 2009. Done!

Well what a day, FANTASTIC! What a great atmosphere and it really brought it home why we need to do this.
It was really hot, and I have burnt a little, but god my head pounded once I got half way round. I have been suffering really bad with headaches every time it thunders, I hate the weather being like this.


So we're looking forward to next years Race For Life and again thank you to everybody who donated to CR UK!


I have decided that I am going to stop going to my weight watcher class, this could be a bad decision BUT what I am going to be doing instead is having a weekly weigh in with two of my friends on a Tuesday and we will be doing some activity that night too. So from getting back from Barcelona Tuesday nights will be my weigh in and girly fitness night.

I will do this, I will get to goal and I will get fit! By next summer, lol.

Race For Life

Not been round for a while, things are tough but I'm still plodding on.

Anyway it's Race For Life day tomorrow so I wanted to let you all know as some of you have been kind enough to sponsor me.

I will blog again soon PROMISE!


http://www.raceforlifesponsorme.org/mandystapleton

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A week off

Not going to be able to get to weigh in tomorrow as I am playing teacher at the moment. Been up and down mood wise so I'm guessing I'll of STS this week :O(
Just gonna keep plodding along while I'm feeling like this, keep up with the exercise until the bad days pass.
Bought my first pair of short for my holiday, really can't wait to get away, just hope it doesn't bring more stress with it. Am going to wait another three weeks before I do a big clothes shop, hopefully that will perk me up a little.

Lost

In more ways than one today :O(

Anyway I lost 1.5lb which is good after my 2lb gain last week. Feeling tired and down today so I need to watch my eating, Krav tonight so that should help even though I don't want to go, but i will drag myself there!

Nothing new......

to report really, got weigh in tomorrow morning. Haven't done as well as I could of really but we'll see how it goes.

Just been for a jog, really pushed myself and only managed to knock 2 seconds off my time! Well I'll put that down to my knee, just to make me feel better :O) But it was a good workout anyway.

Good luck to you if you have weigh in, fingers crossed for me.

Jogging in the rain

What a lovely day it's been, took the kids to the park, played a little football but mostly laid with Ray, watching the kids play, it was lovely.

Anyway we went to McDonalds which really is a one off for us and I never try and be good or count any points. Soooooo, once we got home and sorted out I put on my joggers and went for a jog in the rain, quite refreshing really and my knee isn't as uncomfortable today. Back out again tomorrow so will burn that naughty mc d's off.

I'm just sat sorting out music for my ipod, am planning on really upping my jogging from this week and I don't very often listen to music as I jog but it may just help me up my pace so I have dug out my clubland discs and adding them to my playlist. I love to jog to Keane but I think I need something a little faster to get me going.

Am still off the squats for now, as soon as I'm not feeling any pulling as I jog I will be back at it. Still going at it with the sit ups and press ups, I really do hate press ups!!!! But I will do it, I have noticed I'm getting quite competitive! Think that has come from jogging with competitive people, which isn't a bad thing at all :O)

So lets hope we get some decent weather cos even though it's quite refreshing to jog in the rain, I don't think I'd be up for doing it too often!

Grrrrrrr!

Had a really stressful day today but I'm managing to keep on track, which is great as recently I would of given in by now and just stuffed my face :O)

I went out for a jog this morning which went well, wasn't in pain but my knee did feel uncomfortable still. I guess it'll take a week or so to get back to normal so I'm not gonna push it with the squats.

Well lets hope I continue like this now :O)

Weigh~in :O(

Right, after messing about for two weeks I have gained 2lb. I thought I'd of gained more but am not happy with myself at all.

I'm now 9.5lb behind on my holiday goal with is gutting really when I think that all I had to do was loose 1lb a week! Bloody hell, I really do let myself down at times.

I'm going to drop my points by 2 per day because I've pulled the ligaments in my knee and can't exercise very much at all. As I won't be spending time exercising I'm going to try and put all that energy into cooking and planning my meals, basically going back to basics and trying to get back into the flow of things.
I must say that I am really missing the exercise and that I've been so tired the past two days, I even have ended up napping! Feeling zapped! It could be due to the fact that my mood is still all over the place but hopefully I'll be back at it next week.

Oh I hope I can do this. I CAN do this!!!

Bad me!

Having a terrible time being a good girl! Need a slap to go along with the kick up the backside!!!

First day back on track today, weigh in tomorrow so will find out what the damage is. I've ate like a pig so it could be bad, and the exercise hasn't been great and is now just not really happening at all. I have pulled the ligaments in my knee doing the squat challenge so I'm having a week off from them, going for a limp later though as I don't think I'll be able to jog well.

I'm feeling fatter than ever right now and need to get my head sorted out. I know I have had personal problems but at some point I need to be able to control my eating when things are tough. I don't think the meds I've been taking will make any difference to my weight loss so will see in the morning how motivated my gain makes me.

Wish me luck with next week!

Run Forest run!

Right so last night I did my initial tests for the challenges I've decided to join in with then went jogging. Getting back into the swing of it now and still enjoying it.

Been for a jog today too before I collected Abi from school, I help the kids get ready for Taekwondo on a Monday at the school and they were asking me if I'm trying to get fit :O) they are great kids and all looked very smart in their new uniforms in lesson. They think I'm special cos I can fasten their belts, bless.
Anyway I jogged a full mile without stopping which I have never tried to do before so was a great achievement, 3 months ago I couldn't even jog 100 steps!

Right, day one of the challenges completed, not too bad so just waiting for the sore days to start, will be sure to let you know when they do.
I did 108 squats ~ 45 press ups ~ 38 sit ups! Go me :O)

Right off for a bath before Rainbows.

Squats, Situps and Push ups!

Right found this challenge on Bryhers blog and have decided to join in. Am going to try and join in with all 3 as they are all areas I'd like to work on as I'm loosing weight.

So first is the squats, I managed 60 squats before I gave in which is excellent. I do a lot of squats at Krav which helps.


Push ups, I managed 15 which puts me rank 3, but I do my push ups on my knees, hopefully one day I will be strong enough to do a full press up.


And Situps, I managed 12 which is poor! I always struggle with these and can do more if done in sets but I want to work this area the most.


Right so hopefully I will start tomorrow and it will be very interesting to see if I loose or gain inches from doing this. Wonder if my legs enjoy jogging after 60 squats!

Never got to weigh in.

I really should of made more of an effort but I ended up running late and just didn't make myself go.

I think I've gained 1lb which is expected. This week has been a bad week all round, having major personal issues and am quite depressed so I may struggle for the next few weeks until I get myself pulled round.

I've gone all week without any exercise so yesterday I made myself do 40 minutes on the wii fit, which did make me feel a little better. We had planned to go jogging at 8pm as I have been crying off but my jogging pal couldn't make it so I did go out on my own, it was a slow time but I did it.
I'm not sure if I will make it to Krav tonight, will try but I might wrap up and go for a walk soon, think I need to get out.

I'm waving at....

my 10% goal. 14 stone 13lbs, 4lb to loose!

So when I started I aimed to loose 57lbs, I've now lost 19lbs which leaves 38lbs to loose to get me to goal. I need to loose 9.5lb to get me half way.

Let hope these numbers can keep me going cos we're going through some personal stuff right now. Fingers crossed!

I lost!

I lost 2.5lb this week which I am really please with. I started to get a bit down because I am behind on my holiday goal of 27lb in 27 weeks by, now 4.5lb, BUT I measured myself this morning and I have now lost a grand total of:
2 1/4 inches off my bust :O(
1 3/4 inches off my waist
1 3/4 inches off my hips
1 1/2 inches off my arms
2 inches off my thighs
1/4 of an inch off my calf

I am extremely happy with this, and I now am seeing all the hard work I'm putting in with the exercise paying off. I have lost 7lb since I started exercising and all these inches :O)

Stress head me!

Arrrrrrrrrrrrrrr! I feel so stressed out today, it's unreal. I'm fine when I'm on my own and busy but the slightest bit of stress make me wanna go hide away again.

I went out for a nice walk this morning with my neighbours girlfriend which chilled me out a little but as soon as I got home I felt stressed again, so I went for a drive. I've not wanted to eat much so I have no idea how I'll of done at ww this week.

I'm off out jogging tonight so that might sort my head out a little hopefully and help me relax.

Gained!

Well I gained 0.5lb, not surprised really but I need to stop messing now. I feel like I have lost more inches but I really should be shifting a little weight now too.

I have bought a new recipe book today so hopefully I'll become inspired to cook nice food for myself and get counting them points again. Upping the jogging to see if it helps any.

Right off to do some time on the wii fit, aiming for 3 hours per week!

Why is it ?

That I've lost weight and inches yet I feel massive? I mean I know I'm still way overweight but I just feel huge :O(

Been to Pilates and the gym today, really trying to keep up the exercise but again I'm finding it hard to get into a routine with counting my points, SSDD! Plus I am so hungry, huh. I need putting in these stocks!!!

Photos ;o/

These are the results of me asking Ray to take my photo for my blog. Please excuse the dump and the state of the shots, but hey, it's me as I am now!

I lost a grand total of.........

half a pound!!! Well it's a loss isn't it!

Just shows how poorly I have done over the past 3 weeks really, but without the exercise it would of been a gain.
So tracker will be back out, I never seem to be able to keep using it and I've tried writing what I eat down and using the online tracker, I must get cracking really.

Holiday goal, huh, 4.5lb behind now but want to be back on track within the next two/three weeks. 13 weeks left now and I'm starting to get really, really excited for going away now, woo hoo!

Well I've been using the wii fit and it's very good. The muscle workouts are fab and the aerobics are funny, we have had a giggle and worked up a sweat, so another thing to help me tone up, get fit and loose weight. Good days :O)


I'm finding that I'm getting stuck in a rut with the things I'm eating again so my task for this week is to find some new meals. The turkey and apple burgers in the new ww book look lovely but I'm not a great burger lover, may give them a whirl though.

Fed up :O(

I'm feeling really fed up at the moment, this really makes day to day things hard for me. I'm really working hard on keeping the exercise up, went jogging this morning and have been to Pilates too, but I just can't keep on track with food, and it's not that I'm scoffing my face, I just can't be bothered. Hope my mood picks up quick.

Back at weigh in on Thursday no matter what. If somebody says they have something planned then they can cancel, not me!

My mum and dad bought me a Wii fit for Easter so I think I'll have a bit play with it today.

Grrrrrrr

Never got to weigh in again, other things happened. Trying hard to stay on track though but I have found it quite hard with both the eating and exercise this week.
Kids are on holiday and I do seem to easily slip out of my routine far to quickly! Something I need to work on.

So my plans are that I will go jogging tomorrow, I would of gone out this morning but I did a Krav class last night and I'm seriously sore. I will go to the gym on Tuesday after Pilates and work on all the cardio machines but no weights, and I will do my two Krav classes also.
My jogging is coming on very well, still hard work but I'm getting better, will be out Sunday, Tuesday and Wednesday so hopefully I will be back on track as far as my exercise is concerned.

I must count my points, starting to let this slip which is the worst thing I can do. Right, kick up butt needed, Stern talk given. Heres to a good week!

No weigh in today

I had my second induction at the gym this morning so I didn't get to weigh in, still being good though and hopefully I'll have a good loss next week.

I went out jogging yesterday and did 2.63 miles in 37 minutes!!! I knew I had gone slow the other day and this just proves it, no more taking time off for me cos it makes things harder, huh.
So I did some weights today and some cardio too, had a nice workout and I'm at Krav tonight and I hope we do something to push ourselves.

Noticed this morning that I have a hole in my trainers, have no idea how so I'm gonna take them back next week. V strange.

Gym induction number one

So I joined the gym today after my Pilates class, really enjoyed it too even though it was hard work!
I will have a second induction for the weights which I am going to on Thursday morning, this means I will not get to my weight in this week so I will just stay on track and work hard.

I failed to jog on the treadmill! I felt so unbalanced on it but I'm sure that as the weeks pass I'll get the confidence to pick up pace and get into a jog. I will be continuing to jog outside though.
The cross trainer was hard work, as always, but I managed 10 minutes and my 3 minutes cool down and thought that maybe I could of even done extra.

So hopefully I will get to the gym at least twice a week and enjoy it.

When I left the gym it was school run time so I didn't get chance to go home, shower, change! Went to collect the kids all sweaty BUT as a bonus I had 3 mums stop me and say how well I was looking and asked how much weight I had lost! This is great cos they see me every day and I think, you don't notice as much as when you don't see people often. So thanks mums!

Smiles all round today ;o) I will sleep well tonight!

Jogging and gym

Right I went out for a jog last night and really found it hard so I decided that I would go out again this morning and time myself.
I did 2 miles by jogging for 2 minutes, walking 2 minutes, jogging 2 minutes and so on and it took me 30 minutes!!!!
This is really slow but I am going to do that once a week to see how much I can cut the time down each week.

To be honest, I'm feeling like I'm running with lead in my pockets, maybe it's normal to find it hard after a while and I'll just have to work through it.

I've also decided that I'm going to join the gym. I pay £14 per month for my Pilates classes and for £21 per month I can get gym membership with unlimited swims, sauna use and one exercise class per week, so for the extra £7 I'd be silly not to join!

I'm quite looking forward to it :O)

My Retreat

After days of jogging I decided that I would take it easy and walk, so I took along my camera so that I could share my retreat with you.

There is an amazing smell of wild garlic when you set off, really wakes you up on a morning!

I love this building!

This is my warm up and cool down stretch.

The lambs were born a week ago and are growning so fast! They are such a joy to watch and they will happily follow you :O)

This rainbow was beautiful thanks to our great weather of late! It's so windy here.

When you get to the top gate, you can see for miles. Staindrop church, Raby Castle, Teesdale!

Wonderful, beautiful and right on my doorstep.