Ahhhhh!

I need to post before I eat so much that I gain half a stone by Wednesday!

So I'm starting to freak out a little and have been eating like tomorrow will never come, and I mean eating anything and everything.

I found a lump in my boob a couple of months ago, thought it would just go away so just kept checking it, anyway it never went. So I went to the dr's the other week and I am off to the breast clinic on Thursday, at the hospital, to have whatever they decided to do done. I was ok about things last week but the past 3/4 days I've started to panic a little, I had 4 days worth of sleep in only 2 days, think I started to shut down a little, now I think I need to be taking something to take the edge off the anxiety.

God I feel like such a pleb, keep telling myself it'll be ok but I just can't help thinking that maybe I could get bad news.

I really need to stop eating cos now I'm worried about having a gain come Wednesday, I swear I'm driving myself round the bend, lol. Right I will stop eating crap, I will eat three meals a day and only healthy snacks, I will drink more water and less pop and will exercise more to burn off the excess calories I've eaten and de-stress myself!!!

Fingers crossed for me ladies.

Oh My Blog!

So I've been given a blog award from the fantastic Stephanie! Thank you very much hun, it was a very nice surprise as was your kind words :O)

For people who haven't read Stef's blog, you must call in. Stef has worked so hard and is an inspiration to me, she looks fantastic! Her blogs make me chuckle and love that she shares her photos with us too. As she said about me, Stef is now seen as a friend and I would love to meet up with her one day, soon.


So the rules of the award are:
1. Get really excited that you got the coolest award ever!

2. Choose one of the following options of accepting the Oh My Blog! award:
(a) Get really drunk and blog for 15 minutes straight, or for as long as you can focus.
(b) Write about your most embarrassing moment.
(c) Write a “soundtrack of your childhood” post.
(d) Make your next blog a ‘vlog’/video blog where you’re basically talking to the camera about whatever.
(e) Take a picture of yourself first thing in the morning, before you do anything else (hair, make up, etc) and post it.
3. Pass the award onto at least three, but preferably more, awesome bloggers and let them know.

Right so I'll give you the soundtrack of my childhood.

I was born is 1980 and have a brother 6 years older than me so I grew up listening to Madness, and still love them, THIS being my favourite tune. The twins also love Madness!

Now THIS tune takes me right back to junior school, singing and dancing with my best mate in the playground and I just love listening to it now, such a happy time.
Oh and I went through a stage where I loved the London Boys, they are both dead now :O( Found out a few months ago when I was telling my Spanish friend, Dani, about them and listening to their cd, he took a copy home :O)

Other tracks I love are:
Erasure - Oh L'Amour
Salt N Pepa - Let's Talk About Sex
Cyndi Lauper - Girls Just Want Have Fun

When the 90's hit, and my teen years, I really don't remember who the hell I was listening too, lol, lots of dance and rave music really, THIS was a favourite of mine. I can't really think of anymore now but I'm sure I'll think some more up tomorrow now, lol.


I've not got a photo of me first thing on a morning, but I have got this one from today in DFS. Look at my double chin when I laugh! Oh gosh, that must go!!!!! haha.




So, who will I award this blog award too?

Well apart from Stef, there's three blogs I always drop in on.
They are:

Emma at Life According To Mrs Shilts
Lindsey at Linzerellos Blog
Gemma at Gems WW Story

All three are fantastic ladies who I can identify with, all have done fantastic on there rocky road to being slender, even when they are draggin' their asses off the back of that wagon ;O) with me right behind them.
Thanks for keeping me going ladies, and that includes you Stephanie!

1 Stone Gone!

I wanted this last week but was ill, but after having a night out on Monday at a Bollywood Bash, and eating the best curry ever I didn't think I would of lost at all this week to get it.

I stepped on the scales and thought I was ½lb off :O( but I wasn't :O) Very happy tonight.

No Show

I didn't get to class tonight, feeling very unwell AGAIN! Woke up with a sore ear and throat, then as the day went on the vertigo set in, so back on the pills for me.

Anyway I weighed in on the wii, not sure how accurate it is, but it showed I'd lost 6lb since I weighed in last and that I was 15st 4lb, which means I've lost ½lb, but difference in scales and such means I'll mark it as a maintain for this week and hope for a good loss next week.

Off to a Bollywood bash on Monday night, but I really want a loss so will be extremely good on the night, and hopefully all the laughing will help shift a pound :O)

Oh No!

I fear I may gain tomorrow and it's narking me, don't think I can change that in 1 day but I'm going to be as good as gold and try.

I've just eaten far too much bread, which of course has taken me over my syns. Also had some ice cream last night, when I shouldn't of but did.

Really struggled yesterday, felt very down and couldn't stop wanting and looking at chocolate, I never gave in but maybe I should of then I wouldn't of eaten so much bloody bread.

Oh well, we'll see what the damage is tomorrow, very disappointed :O(

Change In Attitude

Last night at Krav I was chatting about me loosing weight, how I am finding Slimming World so much easier than Weight Watchers and I noticed that I really don't think about food ALL the time anymore.
Maybe it's because most of the time I'm full, not sure. I mean I think about it to plan meals but I don't wake up thinking of food and go to sleep thinking "food, food, food!"

I guess that's a massive thing for me, as long as I keep it up I really can't go wrong.

Had a really tough workout last night, and before the school run I'm off for a walking/jogging/skipping session with my mate. I fear I may be very stiff tomorrow as skipping kills, but it's very good for you.

Oh Yes!

So I gained last week and wasn't very happy about it, could of given myself a right good kicking, but these things happen and at least it was only 1lb.

So I wanted 2lb off this week so that it evened it out. I made sure I went to Krav on Thursday and I worked my but off, was the only woman but fought to keep up with the blokes, and I didn't cry off when I got the chance to come home early.
On Saturday the twins were driving me crazy, they were hyped up to the hilt, so off I took myself into the garden, and I hate gardening! 6 hours later I decided to enter the house again, by this time it was bedtime, lol.
So really I have worked physically hard, as well as being relatively good with my food choices and I believe I deserve the 3lb loss I got tonight on the scales. Very proud of myself and I think it's starting to show.


Was snapped from behind in some photos from the weekends Pants To Cancer run, and even though I'm not skinny, I liked the difference that I saw.

11 weeks until the wedding and I think I might actually feel good on the night if I continue like this!

Huh.............

I gained 1lb! Am gutted but to be honest I knew I hadn't been as good as previous week, yes I did start back at Krav but I wasn't writing down what I was eating so I would of been eating more syns and bad food.

Well another week starts here and I'd like to be 2lb down on the scales next week and there's no reason why I can't do it.