I'm Back!

So I'm back, snots n all. I gained ½lb from my last weigh in, which I'm not quite sure when that was. Not too bad but I still feel disappointed.

I'd put on our Christmas tree that I'd like to be under 15st for Christmas, this means I have 9lb to loose in the next 7 weeks. I really, really want this now so need all the support I can get, especially now when I'm full of cold and feeling sorry for myself.

Today I never had any breakfast as I just wasn't in the mood, but, I did cook myself lunch! I had pasta and it was delish.
I boiled my pasta, dry fried 2 medallions of bacon, chopped, peppers - green and yellow, celery and mushrooms. Added this to passata and basil. Drained pasta and mixed it all together, very filling and tasty.

Right, I'm off for a nap, will sign in tomorrow.

Moo Cow Crafts

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What's Wrong With Me?

I'm still ill and have really struggled this week, only gained ½lb which is great news for me. All I seem to want to do is eat and sleep so I need to try extra hard this week, don't want another gain, no matter how small!

Will try and blog during the week, may help with my motivation. Hope you all have a good week.

Whoopie Do Dah!

After what I ate on Saturday and Sunday whilst in Manchester, I didn't for one minute believe that I would have a loss when I stood on the scales tonight, but I did! 1½lb down :O) and it felt good.

If i can manage a loss 3 weeks running I'll be well chuffed with myself. I actually feel like I have lost weight too which is good, think it's time I brought the tape measure out and had a little update.

I'm sorry to all that read my blog for not dropping in and commenting recently, life has just been a little bonkers and I never felt up to it, but, I have decided to take some time out for myself and relax a little so I will be popping in.


I had a fantastic time in Manchester this weekend, met up with some facebook friends that I had met through WW and HSMSHS.
It was so nice that we all felt so relaxed with each other and just had a nice time shopping, taking photos, chatting and of course eating! And boy did I eat. Can't wait to do it again.

Coconuts!

Well I was all ready to go to weight in and a SW friend dropped some eggs in for me to sell, I mentioned that I'd been scoffing coconuts this week, she pointed out that they weren't free as I had allowed myself to believe, OH POOH STICKS!

So off I trot, on the scales I hopped, I'd lost 2½lb! I was happy, but just think how much I would of lost if I hadn't of been scoffing coconuts for a week. What a pleb I am.

Hoping that I can have another loss next week, even though I'm off to Manchester on Saturday, will probably be eating some cake, and maybe a bit more cake too!

Porky Pig Me

I gained a whopping 5lb on Wednesdays weigh in, gutted wasn't the word. It was to expected though as we ate out nearly every meal due to being out and about, shopping and day trips with the kids.
Back at it now though, finding it hard, and finding it hard to blog too. To be honest, all I want to do is sleep and eat!

The twins are back at school on Tuesday and I'd like to start up jogging again, need to find a little bit of motivation and do it though. I don't seem to have much motivation for anything these days so it's gonna be tough.

I also want to try some new meal ideas, so will be trothing through blogs and magazines.

Back At IT!

Well after gaining 5lb I managed to loose 3½lb this week, how happy was I! I really had tried hard but had felt so bad with lady troubles that I wasn't sure what I'd done. Hope I'm really back on track now and that I can keep it going.

Here are a couple of photos from our time away, we went to Drayton manor with our friends and had a lovely time, the kids loved it.

Me and Jack :O)

Ray and Abi!

Can't believe the rides my little baby went on, I wouldn't dare.

I'm Alive!

I'm back, 5lb heavier and feeling crap about it.

Basically I now need to go back to basics and crack on, started back last week and found it so hard that I gained another pound! huh.

Gonna sit and read my books and try and plan as much as I can because I need a good loss to get me back on track. Need to get moving again too.

Fingers crossed.

Thank God

I'm on a roll, lost 2lb. Very pleased.

I'll weigh in on Tuesday next week, as I will be at the airport on Wednesday collecting our friends coming over from Spain, and then won't weigh in the following week as we are off to Thomas Land :O)

I'm now only 2lb off getting into the 14 stone bracket, I will be happy then!

How The Hell?

I lost 3½lb!

I knew I'd lost because even after a rocky start and a sausage roll, I felt better in my jeans. Feel really happy and much better in myself, gotta keep cracking on now.

Funky Moods

I seem to be having these mood swings, and I don't like them. I think I really need to try and take some time out for myself, I know I need to take some time out for myself!
I know this because for the last 4 days I'm been walking around with one 'smooth as a baby's bottom' leg, and one 'hairy monster' leg, as I only got time to epilate one.

I really am doing nothing for myself on my own right now, apart from going to fat club. This will change!!!



Breakfast
Mint Hifi bar - Healthy extra B

Lunch
WW bolognese tagliatelle - 3½ syns
Sweetcorn

Tea
Tinned steak
Carrots
Peas
Mash - 2 syns

And then the bad syns, all 12 of them came from a sausage roll. F**K!!!

Yesterdays Food

Breakfast
2x Alpen light bars - Healthy Extra B

Lunch
Half a pack of packet rice
2x slices of bacon

Tea
Mash potato, with butter - 2 syns
Bacon

Snacks
Mikado sticks - 3 syns


Not been very good with the fruit, so must eat more.

Ahhhhh!

I just feel like screaming right now. I just can't seem to get my head sorted, lots of stress, and what happens when I stress?

Feeling totally fed up and in need of a huge amount of support as I feel like I'm failing.

Today I ate:

Breakfast
2x Alpen light bars - Healthy Extra B

Late lunch
Spaghetti bolognese
Ciabatta - 8 syns
Cheese - Healthy Extra A

Yeah so was doing well today, but then, started to feel crap about the return of "devil child" and mam and dad turned up with crisps.

McCoys crisps are 8½ syns, I think I've had 3 packs = 25½ syns, Well done me!

Basically, even if I don't eat another syn from now until weigh in, the way I've eaten, I'll still gain. But I need to try, I need to cut out all syns, what the hell am I gonna eat?

Oh I'm going to bed, if I sleep I can't eat :O(

Gutted

I gained 2lb. Not really much else to say about it really apart from I must try harder this week, eat all my healthy extras and have breakfast.

What a day!

Had a mixed day today, been really busy and am just sitting down now and remembering what I've ate.

No breakfast!

LUNCH
Beans
2 slices of Best of both
Butter
TEA
Chicken
Mushrooms
Onion
Rice
Chips
Gravy

Can't be bothered to count the syns but I think I'll of gone slightly over due to the bread and butter, but, it could of been worse.
Have a really busy day planned tomorrow, but I'm hoping to get a little shopping in as the cupboards are bare, and my children won't be happy if they have to suck on ice cubes.

Lets hope the scales are kind to me.

Unhappy Muncher

Well something happened at 2am, in pain and unable to sleep I wondered into the kitchen and sat and ate a bowl of CRUNCHY NUT CORNFLAKES! AND 4 CEREAL BARS! OMG.

But, on the plus side, I did fall asleep when I went back to bed. No idea how many syns were used in this munchie madness :O(

Today has been a nightmare food wise.

BREAKFAST
Cereal bar 4 syns

LUNCH
Pasta
Stir in sauce 3½ syns
Bacon

TEA
Sausage in a bun 8 syns (BBQ with the Rainbows)

15½ syns and I'm still hungry! And I must of ate a full days syns before I started the day, little fed up now really.

Sunday, Sunday!

Guess what? I ate no breakfast, but I just wasn't hungry, it was too hot and I was preparing lunch. I really never have breakfast on a Sunday.

Now if I was at my parents, which I normally am on a Sunday, I would really be struggling to be good, loads of treats to be had and mam and dads house.
Today though I'm home with Ray, twins are at my mam and dads, so we made Sunday roast. Yummy.

LUNCH
Beef
Mushrooms
Jersey potatoes, roasted, oil used healthy extra b
Carrots
Peas
Cabbage
Gravy 3 syns (I love gravy, too much!)
Yorkshire pudding 8 syns (it was massive)

Now normally I wouldn't dream of using all those syns on one meal but I really couldn't resist, plus, I'm now in pain with my back and shoulder so I know I won't be up to making tea.

Tea will probably be yogurt and fruit, maybe options at supper time. Will update later if the Diazepam hasn't totally knocked me out.

Scrummy Yummy Scran

OK, OK, I know what you gonna say, I had no breakfast AGAIN! But, it is Saturday and I like to lay in bed if I can.

LUNCH
Tomato pasta with mushrooms
Nectarine

TEA
McCain rustic oven chips 1 syn (if that.)
Chicken
Huge salad, lettuce, tomato, sweetcorn, carrot and cucumber.

Strawberries
Skinny cow sandwich x2 10 syns

SNACKS
Banana


I use my healthy extra a on my milk for cuppa's, any left over I drink, or cheese. It's my healthy extra b that I'm missing out, but I just read that I can have dried pineapple as one, and I love it, gonna buy some on Tuesday.

Goals!

I need some short term and long term goals so that I can actually feel like I'm achieving something on this long journey.

So my first goal is to get back to my 1st stone lost, I got it then gained. 2lb to loose to get that one.

Next goal is to get into the 14's, this will be a huge achievement for me, I remember when I was 14 years old I weighed 14 stone, and then I've been there twice after that. This will feel good.

Club 10 target is next, 14st 10.5lb.

2 stone award, 14st 3.5lb.

OMG this is the "will I ever get there" goal. 13 stone! When I get to this point I will know I can do it, I will have real faith in myself and I will know I can get to my final target :O)

Todays Munch

No breakfast again because wait for it................ I got to have a lay in!!!!

I took sleeping tablets last night, was asleep by 22:30 and I woke up at 11:15, wow, but I needed it, so that's why I had no breakfast today.

LUNCH
Onken fat free yogurt, Vanilla, I love this yogurt.
4 pieces of Galaxy roasted & caramelised hazelnuts 4½ syns

TEA
Look what we found, Beef & Basil meatballs in tomato sauce 8½ syns
Spaghetti

SNACKS
Banana
Nectarine
Yogurt

Todays Food

NO BREAKFAST

LUNCH
Tomato pasta with chicken

TEA
Fried rice 4 syns
Singapore chow mein (half a portion) 4 syns

Not 100% sure on the chinese syns, just going off what it says in the book.

How Lucky?

I lost ½lb, which is good but I still know I need to stop messing about, AGAIN!

Feeling Gutted......

And I've not even been weighed yet. I never ate well until Monday, then I wouldn't say I've been 100%. I haven't been writing down what I've eaten and to be honest, I feel like I've let myself down by not eating well.

Let's see what happens on the scales, off for a shower.

Picnic And Porkpies

What is it with picnics, I always end up eating the "bad" stuff and leaving the healthy food, grr. This could cost me when I step onto the scales on Wednesday!
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Line drawn and new start tomorrow. Will try and eat as few syns as possible from now and weigh in as I wanted a 2½lb week, but I don't think I've been good enough.

My back is really starting to ache more each day. I really need to rest it a little, so am hoping for an easier week, but I also need to up my skipping and find a pilates class. I'm so pants at times when it comes to sorting stuff out, no get up and go in me.

Let's see how I manage tomorrow, will try and get on to tell you what I've eaten, either way I will be writing my food down and being good!

I.......

Lost 2lb. Very pleased with that, hoping for 2½lb next week and that'll make up my gains.

Very tired tonight and sore too so will be back to posting my food diary tomorrow.

Better Day

Well food wise anyway. I woke up this morning with a very sore back, stomachache and a headache. The headache went by lunchtime but I'm still sore in my back and tummy, don't you just love being a lady!

So today I've eaten:
Breakfast
Banana
Plums x2

Lunch
Packet tomato pasta

Tea
A side plate of mince, mash and a small dumpling (4 syns)

Snack
Mini twister x2 (5 syns)
Options (2 syns) which I haven't had yet but will have once I'm in my pj's and watching tv for the evening.

I really need to start having better breakfast, and use my healthy extras!

So I'm not going to Krav, Pilates or out jogging at the moment for a few different reasons but I need to be doing some form of exercise. I do a lot of skipping in Krav class so I've been looking at a few skipping routines today and after I collected the twins from school, and the sun had moved a little from the back garden, me and Abi went out and did some skipping, hope I can keep it up and maybe do it every day as if I can build it up I can burn off up to 1000 calories and hour. If I could skip for 1 hour I'd be well happy!

Hope you've all been able to enjoy the sunshine, still lush here, 22°C in the shade, I could so get used to this like and I'm not one for sitting in the sun, I'm a redhead and burn! but it's nice to be warm for once.

Right off for a bath.

Todays Food

OMG today has been sooooo bad, twins were off school and things got pretty hectic, car needed to go into garage and just life seemed to be on fast forward.

So today I ate:

Breakfast
2x Banana

Lunch
McFulrry (left over from Jack)

Tea
Mince and dumplings with loads of veg (about 10 syns for dumplings and gravy)

As of yet I've had no healthy extras, but will have a few cuppas tonight to use up some milk. Hopefully with the twins back at school tomorrow, and if nothing unexpected crops up, I'll have a good day.

What I Eat

I have never shared what I eat, I think it may help keep me on track as I was doing ok until the ice cream came out yesterday and then had a MacDonald's today! Owch, why do I do this!

Starting tomorrow I will share with you what I eat and hopefully get right on track, you can slap my hand when I eat naughty things.

I know I'm going to struggle for the next couple of weeks because basically we're skint, so you may notice that I probably don't eat enough some days or eat the same thing a lot, mainly rice and chicken.

Lets hope it helps.

Tears And Tantrums

And that''s just me, lol.

I gained 2½lb in 2 weeks, felt pretty crap about the whole thing to be honest, which wasn't helped by Abi and step son kicking off and getting into trouble at school, nothing I can do about ss but I need to deal with the twins, which is very hard when you're feeling rubbish.

Just going to write everything I eat down and I'm sure it'll all fall into place by next week. Am really going to try and focus on eating very few syns in the hope that it gives me a whopping loss next week.

One lady at class last night, she started the same week as me, lost 7½lb! Woh, was great stuff.

Good luck to you all for a great week, lets hope I can sort myself out.

AWOL!

Don't know where I've been or where I'm going right now, but I thought I'd drop in and try and give myself a bit talking to.

I didn't get to weigh in last week, had a meeting to attend, but I forgot to get weighed at home so don't have a clue what happened with my weight. I've not been too bad, but also haven't been great, so the food diary is coming back out today and I will get the weight shifting.

Plans have changed with the wedding challenge, we're no longer going as our friends from Spain are coming to stay with us. I'm not going to give in though so I still plan on loosing as much as possible for them coming, I want them to notice my loss.

I've got little Molly staying with me this week, she came last night cos I had to take her to the vets this morning with her sore eye, she has conjunctivitis. Anyway she'll stay with me until the weekend when my dad is home as my mam can't manage to get the drops in her eyes. At the moments she's having a little nap but I plan on walking her legs off before I collect the twins from school, a good hours walk should do her right, and if I can keep it up all week it should help me shift some weight and tone up a little.

Food this week is going to be a little more planned. Tonight we're having pasta in tomato sauce with Bowyers sausage. Tomorrow is fajitas, scrummy yummy, Wednesday we're having a chicken dinner, Thursday chicken friend rice and Friday chicken chow mein.
I never plan weekends and that's fine as long as I don't have rubbish in the cupboards!

Here's to a good week.

Good Lumps!

Had ultrasound today and my lumps are just breast tissue :O) No cancer , cysts or anything else nasty. Happy days!

Now back on that wagon, 2lb to loose.

Self Destruct!

Why do I do it? Allow stress to get in the way, grrrrrr!

So I put 2lb on, this will have to come off for next week or I won't be a happy bunny at all. I know I have reason to be stressed, but I want to loose weight, I need to be thinner. Hopefully once tomorrow is out the way I can get on with and continue to loose.

Not sure if I mentioned I went to a Bollywood Bash the other week, we had a fab night and dressed up. We had henna done, I always wanted one done, and we ate the most amazing meal ever.
Anyway I thought I would share some photos from the night.

Ahhhhh!

I need to post before I eat so much that I gain half a stone by Wednesday!

So I'm starting to freak out a little and have been eating like tomorrow will never come, and I mean eating anything and everything.

I found a lump in my boob a couple of months ago, thought it would just go away so just kept checking it, anyway it never went. So I went to the dr's the other week and I am off to the breast clinic on Thursday, at the hospital, to have whatever they decided to do done. I was ok about things last week but the past 3/4 days I've started to panic a little, I had 4 days worth of sleep in only 2 days, think I started to shut down a little, now I think I need to be taking something to take the edge off the anxiety.

God I feel like such a pleb, keep telling myself it'll be ok but I just can't help thinking that maybe I could get bad news.

I really need to stop eating cos now I'm worried about having a gain come Wednesday, I swear I'm driving myself round the bend, lol. Right I will stop eating crap, I will eat three meals a day and only healthy snacks, I will drink more water and less pop and will exercise more to burn off the excess calories I've eaten and de-stress myself!!!

Fingers crossed for me ladies.

Oh My Blog!

So I've been given a blog award from the fantastic Stephanie! Thank you very much hun, it was a very nice surprise as was your kind words :O)

For people who haven't read Stef's blog, you must call in. Stef has worked so hard and is an inspiration to me, she looks fantastic! Her blogs make me chuckle and love that she shares her photos with us too. As she said about me, Stef is now seen as a friend and I would love to meet up with her one day, soon.


So the rules of the award are:
1. Get really excited that you got the coolest award ever!

2. Choose one of the following options of accepting the Oh My Blog! award:
(a) Get really drunk and blog for 15 minutes straight, or for as long as you can focus.
(b) Write about your most embarrassing moment.
(c) Write a “soundtrack of your childhood” post.
(d) Make your next blog a ‘vlog’/video blog where you’re basically talking to the camera about whatever.
(e) Take a picture of yourself first thing in the morning, before you do anything else (hair, make up, etc) and post it.
3. Pass the award onto at least three, but preferably more, awesome bloggers and let them know.

Right so I'll give you the soundtrack of my childhood.

I was born is 1980 and have a brother 6 years older than me so I grew up listening to Madness, and still love them, THIS being my favourite tune. The twins also love Madness!

Now THIS tune takes me right back to junior school, singing and dancing with my best mate in the playground and I just love listening to it now, such a happy time.
Oh and I went through a stage where I loved the London Boys, they are both dead now :O( Found out a few months ago when I was telling my Spanish friend, Dani, about them and listening to their cd, he took a copy home :O)

Other tracks I love are:
Erasure - Oh L'Amour
Salt N Pepa - Let's Talk About Sex
Cyndi Lauper - Girls Just Want Have Fun

When the 90's hit, and my teen years, I really don't remember who the hell I was listening too, lol, lots of dance and rave music really, THIS was a favourite of mine. I can't really think of anymore now but I'm sure I'll think some more up tomorrow now, lol.


I've not got a photo of me first thing on a morning, but I have got this one from today in DFS. Look at my double chin when I laugh! Oh gosh, that must go!!!!! haha.




So, who will I award this blog award too?

Well apart from Stef, there's three blogs I always drop in on.
They are:

Emma at Life According To Mrs Shilts
Lindsey at Linzerellos Blog
Gemma at Gems WW Story

All three are fantastic ladies who I can identify with, all have done fantastic on there rocky road to being slender, even when they are draggin' their asses off the back of that wagon ;O) with me right behind them.
Thanks for keeping me going ladies, and that includes you Stephanie!

1 Stone Gone!

I wanted this last week but was ill, but after having a night out on Monday at a Bollywood Bash, and eating the best curry ever I didn't think I would of lost at all this week to get it.

I stepped on the scales and thought I was ½lb off :O( but I wasn't :O) Very happy tonight.