Rant

I fancy a rant so here we go!

I'm so wound up at the moment with the kids, grrrr. Can't wait for Monday to come so they can go back to school and I can get my head on straight.

The twins fight at times but not too serious, but Jack hates Abi. He says he doesn't love her and that really upsets me. Me and my brother were never close but I loved him, he also hated me so I know how it feels to grow up with a brother who doesn't love you.
I obviously don't know what to do about this and it's driving me round the bend!

Just been shopping for the boys shoes so that I could get out the house for a while and get away from everybody.

I hate it when I have things like this on my mind because I can't seem to be able to concentrate on anything else and I struggle with my diet. I am going to have to try extremely hard to just put this to the back of my mind until I work out a way of dealing with it and just stay as relaxed as possible. I really am quite highly strung these days and need to chill out a hell of a lot.

I've gone from doing reasonably well on ww, jogging 3/4 times a week, pilates once a week, self defence twice a week and the gym on occasions to doing nothing. Just being stuck at home with the kids, not having any energy and wanting to stuff my face with rubbish.

I know what I need to do but I'm finding it hard to do it. What I need is a huge kick up the backside!

I am going to phone up and book into pilates class for Tuesday, that is one step in the right direction. I will also make sure that when Tuesday comes round I will visit the gym too. As far as everything else is concerned I will take it one step at a time getting back on track.