Exercise

I'm thinking that to get me going this is the only exercise I need to be doing, I bet it's gonna be the hardest too!




I need to say no to the wine, schnapps, cider, takeaway, chocolate, bread, cheese, ice cream.......

I'm a big girl, I can do this, lol.

W Day!

I did it! I stood on the scales and I hated what I saw.

16st 10¼

This is the heaviest I have ever been and I know exactly how I got here too.

What Day Is IT?

Terrible day.

Had a bit of an argument with Ray via text early hours of the morning, I was drunk, I need to not drink as much.
Took the twins to the seaside where they did nothing but moan on at me, to the point where I felt like burying them in the sand and sitting and moaning at them for a few hours.
Drove a 40 mile round trip, spent £42.05 to have one of our guinea pigs put to sleep.
Oh and I ate fish and chips!

My mood is on the floor and it feels like everybody is walking straight over it. And I'm hungry!

I must get weighed in the morning and I have found a fitness routine that I should start to do at home, I know it will make me feel better, or kill me!

Where to start!

I bet you can guess why I'm back here, yep, I wanna loose weight. Not just loose weigh but sort my head out and move on.

I'm now living on my own with the kids, and I guess I've been living it up, eating and drinking with friends. My life revolving around food, using it as a plaster, covering up the hurt and total mess of my life.

Well, enough is enough! No matter how much I tell myself I'm happy, I'm not!
I'm fat and I hate it, I hate how I look and feel and it's just got to change, not just for me either, for the kids too.

All I need to do is stop being so lazy and think about what I'm eating, every day. I know this isn't going to be easy but I know I can do this. Everything else, MEN, is going to have to move over so I can do this.

Actions mean more than words. That is all I need to remember.

All support, arse kicking welcome!

First Weigh In

I lost 4 1/4lb :0) Very happy with that, was what I needed to fit comfortably in my clothes.

Now, the hard part is keeping it up

How Hungry?

I've been so hungry today it's unreal! I have tried to be very healthy and still have my comfort foods too.


Obviously the treats shouldn't of been consumed but I needed them, honestly. Plus I am going to have my treats when I really feel I need them or this just won't work. I just have to be honest.

Still Here!

So all was going well, until I skipped supper last night and ended up binging, OWCH! Ok, so I'm over it, lesson learnt and hopefull not too much damage done.

I never blogged my first weigh in, 16st. So I am going to start from there, reset everything so it's my starting weight. Will be weighing in on my own every Friday morning, I have even bought a set of scales!

I'm not quite sure of what plan I'm following. Checking calories on foods and trying to just choose healthy options, the Mandy Plan I guess.

I want this to work!